there are these days when you just want to disappear. like, is this hormonal imbalance shit, or my mind’s just unstable? whatever the fuck is causing this makes me realize one thing, you can’t be with someone for too long. well, i don’t know how it works with marriage though, beats me. but i guess i have to find my fucking self. can i just disappear in this fucking instant? so many shit going on in my head and around me. i feel suffocated and strangled. i did drag myself to this, now, i cant just get the fuck out. i don’t know what to do. it’s far from the movies i’ve seen, running away isn’t that easy. *sigh.